i'm unofficially taken :)

by whom? haha. just let time goes by and sooner or later people will know who he is

i love him,

and always try my best to stay in love with him.

and i really hope that things will actually work on us. :)

can't wait to meet you.

p/s: i always love you N.S

jaring owh jaring

ini adalah notis !

sangat penting.

LINE WIRELESS DI KAWASAN SAYA/ LAPTOP SAYA TIDAK DAPAT MENG'DETECT' LINE JARING =.="

sakit nya hati, dah la assignment menimbun. test accounting this Sunday. notes tak de. en goggle la tutor aku. =.="

please la puan jaring, jangan la menghilang, merajuk ke? :( 

saya perlukan awk, pulanlah kepangkuan acer saya ni.

haishhhhh, masalah-masalah.

dah la JPA  x dapat =.="

tak kan aku nak beragntung hidup dengan ptptn tu :(

mama cakap: buat rayuan

dia cakap: mintax biasiswa UKM 

ntah laaaa, tawakal je la.

so notis ni nak bagitau yang fatin x kan online for few weeks mayb?

p/s: sorry for the mix language.

i'm using rommates laptop and i have few minutes to get ready because i'm going out to do some shopping raya =.="

it makes my mood to do some raya shopping down. :(

going to miss you all people, pray for things to get a bit better :)

owh, wish me luck on sunday's accounting mid exam :)

p/s: always love you

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this is me. and it hurts

kenape wujudnya virus? =.="

TODAY! 

EXTERNAL HARD DISK AKU MASUK VIRUS :B

habes satu folder gamba aku hilang. macam ^%##$^^&*%$%

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! =.="

p/s: sumpah x boleh buat pape.  

sabar je la =.="

barney obsession?

desktop wallpaper :)

YES, I DO HAVE THIS OBSESSION WITH THIS CREATURE! :D

who cares people said i'm immature, trust me, every person in this world, have their own addiction towards childish attitude.

for me, even i'm 19. i love barney since the day i born.

bunuh diri =.="

dah sah org akan sebut-sebut UNIVERSITI KEBANGSAAN MALAYSIA  bila baca artikal ni.

kolej pendeta zaba. haishh, selamat bukan aminuddin baki =.="

masa benda ni baru-baru lagi jadi, ada juga dengar khabar angin dari zaba atas bukit tu ke kolej fatin.

macam-macam cerita.

bunuh diri sebab tension belajar

ada 'benda' tolak

putus cinta

sebelum cubaan bunuh diri ni budak cina ni mcm meracau

duduk kat tengah jalan malam-malam buta,

menangis kat tepi tingkap dalam bilik sorang-sorang.

p/s: wey, kesian kat roomate die. =.="

seram sejuk pon ada.

SYUKUR sangat bukan kolej fatin. =.="

haishhhh, aku dah la jenis penakut, selalu balik lambat, kuar malam. 

kes bunuh diri melibatkan pelajar ni dah selalu dengar. suma reason yang sama.

wahai budak, masa awk bunuh diri tu x fikir mak bapak ke?

even you've done the biggest mistake in your life,

you make yourself ashame in front of the whole wide world, 

shame your entire family, friends, strangers,

but eventually parents will be the first person who will forgive,

because inside us , flows their blood.

and no matter what happen, we are still their children.

fatin pon buat silap besar dengan family,

semua org pernah,

tipu la x der,

sebab setiap manusia dalam dunia ni mesti ader wat silap,

walaupun alim mana org tu.

tapi kita kena ingat,

ALLAH MAHA PENGAMPUN, MAHA PENYAYANG,

besar mana silap kita denganNYA, insyaALLAH,

dengan bertaubat, perlahan-lahan untuk berubah, ALLAH akan membantu dan mengampunkan dosa kita,

sebesar mana pon ia :)

like i said. PERLAHAN-PERLAHAN.

p/s: faham x? =.="

mood: letih, sebab banyak tido.

p/s: we miss you

it holds everything. LOST

this quotes hold everything that i felt.

doa untuk kekasih. post by Nur Izasyafira

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang



Ya Allah...

Seandainya telah Engkau catatkan...

Dia milikku tercipta buatku...

Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku...

Titipkanlah kebahagiaan antara kami...

Agar kemesraan itu abadi...



Ya Allah...

Ya Tuhanku yang Maha Mengasihani...

Seringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini...

Ketepian yang sejahtera dan abadi...

Maka jodohkanlah kami...



Tetapi Ya Allah...

Seandainya telah Engkau takdirkan

Dia bukan milikku...

Bawalah dia jauh daripada pandanganku...

Luputkanlah dia dari ingatanku...

Dan periharalah aku dari kekecewaan...



Ya Allah ya Tuhanku yang Maha Mengerti...

Berikanlah aku kekuatan...

Menolak bayangannya jauh ke dada langit...

Hilang bersama senja yang merah...

Agarku sentiasa tenang...

Walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya...



Ya Allah yang tercinta...

Pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdir-Mu...



Sesungguhnya apa yang telah Engkau takdirkan

Adalah yang terbaik untukku...

Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui...

Segala yang terbaik buat hamba-Mu ini...



Ya Allah...

Cukuplah Engkau sahaja yang menjadi pemeliharaku...

Di dunia dan akhirat...

Dengarkanlah rintihan daripada hamba-Mu

yang daif ini...

Jangan Engkau biarkan aku sendirian...

Di dunia ini mahupun di akhirat...

Menjuruskan aku ke arah kamaksiatan dan kemungkaran...

Maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman...

Agar aku dan dia sama-sama dapat

membina kesejahteraan hidup...

Ke jalan yang Engkau redhai...

Dan kurniakanlah kepadaku keturunan yang soleh dan solehah...



Ya Allah...

Berikanlah kami kebahagiaan di dunia dan akhirat...

Dan periharalah kami dari azab api Neraka...



Amin...amin...Ya rabbal 'aalamin.

sniper, hangout, bubur :)

today's blog it's about three things.as you can see form the title.

usually i upload all the picture one by one. 

regarding i really don't have time to upload it one by one because there a lot of picture that i wish to share,

so i decided to collage :)

SNIPER

I-CITY RAWKS!

this outing is under aminian's sniper,

my college official photography club :)

i still remember how excited i am knowing that this club exist.

and now your looking at the assistant treasurer for this club :)

EXCITED WEYHH! :)

 at least i can learn more about photography and more 

so i-city it is :)

we have our dinner or buka puasa together with the snipers at jusco around shah alam.

then me, unta, nana, liza, kak shairah, and kak yana just walk around the jusco before our trip to i-city continue :)

overall i can say,

that night was superb! 

i enjoy myself :)

the place was like amazing. 

i wish i own a DSLR so i can really do some serious photo shoot. 

just a matter of time fatin :)

thanks to my kodak compact.

good job me!

the model of the day is

UNTA AND NANA

theme: ANGEL AND DEVIL.

you guys done a great modelling.

thanks to me: lighting girl :D

kak shairah: head model :)

kak yana: photographer.

FATINGRAPHY'S IN ACTION :)

IHYA RAMADHAN

aktiviti: masak bubur lambuk

tempat: dataran K4 kolej aminudin baki

tugasan: AMINIAN'S SNIPER TURUN PADANG :)

cooking session :)

the smell is irresistible people.

SUMPAH SEDAP :D

then, the aminian's sniper first year top organization do some meeting :)

it was funny and fun at the same time.

thanks peeps, i have fun

especially with mimie! BEST DOWW :)

LEPAS GIAN KAT SLR KAU. thanks babe.

mustaqim, mimi, khairol.

thanks :) you guys are great!

OUTING BERSAMA BUDAK ARAS :)

THANKS YOU GIRLS :)

i have fun going out with you people <3

p/s: August hurts more than heal

barney

every time i started to cry, i push your voice box, everything just felt better.

i love you barney. 

and i just don't want to loose you just like i loose him,

barney meet kak shairah :)

peeps, i have a lot to share but I'm so busy with study and works to do. SUMPAH PENAT =.="

but today i just want to update one blog. it's about kak shairah :)

one word about her. LAWA AND SANGAT BAIK :)

i know her through aminian's sniper :)

she's one of the model for the club. YUP, MODEL. 

she's have wonderful figure and absolutely beautiful smile and face.

she's not physically wonderful, inner of her makes everything about her is perfect. :)

she's kind hearted person and she's friendly to.

easy to get along and talk a lot just like me :D

I've known her for a while and knowing her just in a short time makes me want to know her more 

seriously, she's easy to get along. say hi to her, she won't bite :)

sis, thanks for being there for me,

try to make things better for me,

in my worst condition, eventually i can turn to you,

i know you will be there for me,

buy me nasi lemak kukus with sambal kerang,

you are the definition of perfection in my life kak shairah. THANKS :)

gambar 1: kak shairah men bontot barney

in her mind: barney nyanyi kuar bunyi kat bontot :D

gambar 2: kak shairah sayang barney gak :)

p/s: ily kakak :)

dedicate lagu perfect two by auburn tu kat kak shairah je la 

take a deep breath

LIFE, I'VE STARTED TO GET BORED OF YOU.
ineedyounow :(
i cry,my tears fall. and i don't know why.
it kept flowing fast, i try to stop it, but i can't.
i don't have the strength to do anything
i can hide it anymore.
i miss my best friends.
friends that makes me laugh in my worst situation like this.
the pain. i just can't bare it.
i try to stand strong, i try to fight with it.
but i have no strength to fight it alone.
i don't want to cry, i don't want to make my self felt misery.
i just want to be happy,
i want to be a girl that have her own reason to laugh out loud,
i want to run into a wide green field with a bunch of friends,
my best friends,
share some wonderful laugh, and tears,
talk and talk and wait for the stars to come out,
or maybe shooting star so that we all can make a wish,
and i have one wish

I WANT THIS MOMENT TO STAY
THE FEELINGS, THE MOMENT

it hurts now. and i don't know what to do to make it felt better.
life hurts.
take a deep breath and let it go slowly,
times will heal

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YESSSSS! AT LAST,

i know how to make the two black border for the picture. WOOT WOOT :)

credit to : TEHA SAYANG <3

teha, i actually use your advise about the photo scape, just a bit late to apply on the picture.

thanks sifu :)

and now, this first picture of experimenting is now my header for my blog!

p/s: ily teha 

fatingraphy's flickr

i have my own official photography album at last :)

it's hard for me to upload all in facebook because it's include my personal picture.

so I've decided to make one account for my picture collection. LOVE IT. 

RAJIN-RAJIN JENGUK YE :)

http://www.flickr.com/photos/fatingraphys/

p/s: i need to learn a lot more.sila beri tunjuk ajar 

currently: kodak compact 10 mpx

dream: to own a DSLR :) insyaALLAH.

hari ini :)

click for clearer view :)

today's mood: ok laa. just fine

feeling like updating blog randomly because i felt i want to.

i miss my webby ( web cam) 

i miss BARNEYYYY. micit montot die nyayi!

i love you,

you love me,

we are happy family,

with a great big hug,

and a kiss from me to you,

won't you say you love me to.

p/s: x ley micit selalu, batry habes. :D

i make decision to bring it back to UKM.

reason? : ntah :)

life, please be nice to me once in a while,

let me have my happiness just a bit long. JUST A BIT.

i want to be happy like others. 

I'm happy now, i really am :)

but i just need something or someone to share that happiness with me.

if the moment is not now, it's OK then.

i'll wait :)

along this weekends, things that bothering me:

1. assignment yang sangat menimbun =.=" 
2. FACEBOOK IS VERY ADDICTIVE. sumpah wei. 
3. saya nak mengadap muka awk setiap hari boleh? jauh pown x pe :,)
4. ptptn or jpa, please be nice.i'm facing through bankruptcy :B
5. imy bdk.
6. soul mate anyone?
7. i love my compact so much! SNAP SNAP <3
8. people that nowadays easily come and go.
9. A.N :,) you are the only exception

love the way you sing kiddo :)

buffer je lebih video ni. sabar ekh. for clearer view

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ErMWX--UJZ4

eventually, he does make me felt better

p/s; have a great day reader. thanks for reading I LOVE YOU

HOME :)

AT LASTTTTT. home sweet home.

normally, people don't have time to write their journey back to home town. me too

but at least i just want to cherish my first independent journey alone back to JB :)

and here it is, :)

it's Friday! i want to go back home! 

after settle few things before going to jb, i ask kak yana favor to send me and one of my friends to the train station. 

abg, tiket pegi Seremban satu! 

few minutes waiting. CHOOO, CHOOOO! THE TRAIN COMES! :D 

along the whole journey, i stand until Seremban, 

i have my laptop beg and my handbag,that i guess total up aroung 2 kg =.="

choo,choo! hehe. this is my first independent journey going back home from UKM  ^.^ bangga!

more or less i arrive Seremban about 45 minutes.

i went to terminal 1 and buy the ticket back to

JOHOR BAHRU! p/s: excited. hehe

waiting the bus in one problem, 

LAMBAT DOE. =.="

there are no chair for me to put my bontot so i can sit =.="

HEAVYYYYYY!

but deep inside i say ' who cares! i'm heading back to jb at last' :)

the bus arrived and the only activity i done in the bus is

SLEEP :D

immediately i arrive in JB i take 2 bus to my house 

the nearer i am to my house i just felt so excited that moment :)

this is it. MY HOME SWEET HOME :) 

nuka budak busuk yang kelaparan :)

TING TONGGG! mama, i'm home 

i just go straight to my mum and hug her. and there on the same table is my two little devil ( siblings) haha

dad's not here because he haven't back from KL regarding of his job.

I SAW FOOOOOOOD! 

I SAW MY BEDDDDDD !

rinduuuu :(

nasi putih dgn ayam sambal :) FAV!

still thinking hopw am i going to bring mr teddy along to UKM =.=" 

i wish you were a bit smaller

after doing some cleanup,

mama: akk, hntar adik pegi tucen, ibu nak pegi solt tarawikh :)

me: okie dokie :D

lepas gian wei nak bawak kereta citra kesayangan aku tu! sumpahhh. GIAN GILEE.

baby, come to mummy ! yohooooo!

after sending my youngest siblings, and here i am with the radio on with the loudest volume 

and i sing like a crazy maniac,

driving the car to nowhere

BUT STILL WEARING SIT BELT :)

pemandu berhemah tau

SATURDAY :)

my tonsil haven't get any better :(

i love seeing doctor because they are handsome.

AND THEY REALLY AM <3 

then we done some shopping so that my mum can cook for us today :)

and a bit of my stuff

    

i love my compact! 

three part of shopping :)

mine, adik's and mama's 

COOKING SESSION START!

anak dara duduk dapur :)

today's menu :

ROTI JALA AND CHICKEN CURRY!

still my favorite! 

i love being at home :,)

then we went to bazaar! the place that is compulsory to go on fasting month

location : kampung melayu :)

advise: kalau x tahan jgn tgk :D

then my mum just burst out some plan.

mama :KAKAK NAK PEGI SHOPPING KAT SINGAPORE X?

me:???????? NAKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!

HAHA, BECAUSE OF TOO EXCITED, I FORGET TO BRING MY COMPACT ALONG.

babi! =.=" p/s: sorry for cursing. haihhhh 

don't felt like story that part, no mood. huh!

p/s: next time.

ih, this is my little devil. nice one :) PULAKKK. haha

i miss them so much, their fight, the annoying voice.

but still they are my little brother :)

how hard you put a burden in my life budak-budak,

i still love you :)

then i meet my aunt family and the most important one,

my grandma :(

no picture were taken because i'm to excited meeting them.

lepas rindu. PUASSSS! 

room moment :)

I MISS MY BED, I MISS MY PILLOW, I MISS TEDDY, I MISS BARNEY, I MISS EVERYTHING THAT RELATE WITH MY PINK ROOM!

SUNDAY! 

it's Sunday already? :(

mama, i promise to be good girl, don't let me go home yet. pleaseeeeeee

but what can i do. haihhhhh

THE JOURNEY BACK TO UKM :)

ayah, mama, thanks for the great weekends. i love you. always!

thanks for nagging at me because of small thing. haha. i miss that.

ayah, LET ME HAVE YOUR N97 PHONE! PLEASEEEE

haha, ilysm

bus activity :)

 always have always be :)

extra one back that fill with my food and i'm bringing back mr barney :)

highway view :)

eventually i arrive in Seremban and it was crazily raining

AND I MEET YOU, BUT WE'VE DONE NOTHING! :(

SORRY, you know why 

and i reach UKM at last :)

tired? YES, but i have fun.because this my first independent journey back home and back to ukm

ALONE! :D bangga! hehe

why am i so proud of my self? this is why :

i was so scared of taking the bus or any transportation alone =.=

i just afraid being alone, nowadays crazy maniac is just around the corner to ruin other people life. 

second is, i just afraid if I've take the wrong bus, train, cab and whatsoever.

but now, i really proud of myself being independent :)

CLAP,CLAP FOR ME :)

hari tu saya berbuka puasa dgn bdk kriket and k.yana :)

thanks guys.

even tough i'm damn tired

but just like k.yana said.

those tired feelings eventually lost after having some laugh with you people.

thanks :)

AND DONE! new chapter of my life :)

along of journey of being me, i felt so tired.

tired of watching people. but this is what definition of life is,

moving on, walk, run, stare. all type of movement i can watch what people have done to stay alive ,

couple walk together, family walk with their children, friends walk among friends, old people walking nowhere.

and me, just by watching them, i guess I've learn something from it. 

JUST BEING YOURSELF, AND STAND STRONG FOR IT.

WHATEVER IT TAKES, LIFE MUST GO ON.

EVEN EVERY STEP THAT YOU TAKE IT'S HURTING,

KEEP MOVING ON,

BECAUSE EVERYONE DOES THE SAME :)

p/s: done