Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Don't hate me for writing my feeling out. it's not a crime

It's had been like 3 days now that i'm back in UKM. Doing stuff that i like that is make myself busy. Busy with stuff that can make me sit around with my friends and do some work and laugh about anything and make fun of each other for nothing. This is what universities life is. Fun and awesome :) 

But back at home, grandma is kinda ill. Sakit jantung. And it worried me so much. I call her like everyday and sometime i cry if she didn't  pick up the phone. She was admitted to the hospital for two days, but alhamdullilah she's getting better. She's everything to me. I just can't imagine my life without her. 

Alhamdulillah . Thank you Allah for the result. 
Seeing people smiling and jumping because of their good result makes me silent. You can guess why huh. Today was not kind of my night. I've checked my result. And i expect this sad feelings eventually going to hit me. But still, i don't judge myself because of that one failure. I still have 2 years more to go. A lot more to learn.  A lot more to experience. No one told me life will be always sweet, neither bitter. Life is both predictable and unpredictable. But one thing that i'm assure. Life move on. Whatever you do, you just can't go back in time and change things. This is not a world of cartoon or imagination that you can build a time machine and go back in time to change those moment in life that you regret and wish for a better future. It's bull shit. This is reality. You can choose. either to be stupid and regret for the mistake that you had done. And move on with life and try to make those mistake as a lesson in life. 

Allah bagi kau menangis bukan sebab die nak tgk kau sedih, die sayang kau. Die buat semua tu sebab die nak uji samada kau kuat tak nak terima dugaan die, nak terus tabah demi dia. If you survive this, kalau bkan ganjaran dunia kau dapat. Ganjaran akhirat untuk kau. So be grateful for what he had gave you. Because there even people out there not even close to have the chance to continue their study like you did. 

good night then :')


Amyna Hasan said...

yeah bebeyh..u'r rite..hurmm

Nazrul Izzat said...

do learn from the lesson!!
study smart!
not fuc*ing hard!
miss joyce's advice-except the 'f***ing'