in counting

counting till 2010 overs :')

can't wait for a new beginning of the 2011.

tonight, i have my 2nd dance practice for the yearly event at my college,

i was there first, 

i look myself in the mirror,

searching for imperfection, 

finding which part of me that people hate.

nobody's perfect,

in any ways.

2010 was hard on me,

not a lot of sweet memories i share on this year,

i guess a lot of pain and heartache was serve for me this year,

but still,

each year,

those pain and hatred makes me a stronger person,

a stronger girl :')

i fall apart a lot,

tears kept flowing for no reason,

i miss people that don't even miss me as much as i do,

i make mistake and kept making the same mistake over and over again,

and i never tend to be tired of getting myself hurt.

before i end this year,

 i wish to tell the world how i felt about 2010,

that will be the last post i make in this year,

tomorrow i will post that blog,

and i always wish you read it,

if only you read it,

this is the only strenght that i have to told you how much i miss you,

and a lot of things change,

and make me slowly forgetting you,

just like taking out a big part of me,

and throw it away,

but still,

the scar are always there,

forever remain in my heart,

you were apart of me,

always have always be. :')

i wish you knew :')

the things between us,

use to be the best part of my life this year,

and letting it go,

is not easy as you think it is,

i may look that i'm moving on,

i am,

but you don't know how much sacrifice to make you believe that i am happy with my life now.