my lullaby stories: damn steamboat grr and life

those small thingy that i bought yesterday makes my stomach twist! not only mine, but yeng tu. grrr.

stupidness steam bot

yet i still eat for lunch :) haha, nothing can stop me from having my stomach full my dear.

mom call ask bout me , asking about schedule for next week exam. the dad talk. we laugh , DAMN, i miss my folks :(

nak balik johorrrrrrrr !

i scream inside my head. wishing that time goes by so fast. a lot had happen. and I've learn a lot more than i expected. sometimes thing that we didn't think will happen eventually happen in future.

for example:

i use to be a lousy girl and i always fight with my parents about stupid things.

but now, every time i meet them, saw them in front of me. i would just run to them and hug them hard. letting them know that nothing else important other then them.

then, about friends. honestly i never thought of appreciate them more than myself and my life.

all i care is about 'him' , me and my imaginary world. sometimes i don't care about others.

but now, life have thought me to be more grateful with what in front us. we don't need to run and beg and search. it always been there in front of us. so appreciate it. cause one day you will felt so regret losing the only thing that really cares about you

p/s: this one i must take not. i usually repeat the same thing again and again.

people go through break down often, but how they survive?
by lady giggle bell :)
weired name?
p/s: i added some of this article.

cause they have a strong feelings inside telling them to stop worried about drama that makes a horrible endings.

they have a guts to tell that ' HEY YOUR NOT DUMB MY DEAR, THEY ARE. YOU LOVE HIM SO MUCH, BUT HIS THE ONE LOSING SOMETHING THAT IS HARD TO GET LATER'

but still, girls do have the thought to think deep. about:

'what if i can change everything?'

'what if i can beg him, maybe his giving me 2nd chance?'

'what if im faking my smile just to make him felt * gisshhhh, that girl can live with out me'

'what if i just be stupid and wait wait wait for him. even his married you still want to wait?'

and hoping his coming back to us.

and you girls were like ' im willing to wait you for a million years'

this stupid question always pop up on the mind of the heart broken girls

TRUST ME, YOU NEED TO STOP THINKING AND MOVE ON

i know it's hard dear, so hard and you cry everyday of your life, blaming your self because of the broke up. NO and STOP IT THIS INSTANT. like i say, his loss. not ours. maybe his not that good for you and you will find others in future that WAY BETTER THAN THEM.

kak ainur once said: fatin, kat uni lagi banyak lelaki yang pelbagai ragam yang fatin ley choose sayang :)

so, stop thinking that it is over and you felt this is the end of the world!. DUHHHHHH.

wake up. open your eyes. see around you. still got others that cares about you. ME TOO :)

so learn from the mistake. may be your ex like to condemn you about your style, hair , look , cloth , HYGIENE, face , the way you smell, or whatsoever.

take it as a positive point of view.

use it to change yourself to be a better person. if he can't except you. others will.

not now, not tomorrow. but in future.

I KNOW, YOU LOVE HIM AND IT'S HARD TO LET GO. UNTIL WHEN ?.

the same question always hit me hard on me.

trust me. it's a matter of time.

except the truth that HE ARE NOT INTO YOU.

if his loving you like hell. he will never let you go.

like kak fana said: if die sayang fatin die bagi fatin peluang untuk berubah

see! clear and flawless. stop doing stupid things and have fun being single :)

*tips: people always do the same mistake again and again. so try to forgive people and give them second chance to prove it that they are really regret with what they have done.

if the person love you, he /she willings to wait for your changes with patient and being supportive.

IF NOT, he will never give his hand for help and just drop you down hard and let you go without parachute.

UNDERSTAND NOW FATIN ?

hehe yup :) clear.

LISTEN, you will broke down, miss him , cry hard, hug your barney, play with it , look at your old memories photos , search for him, stalking his life , what he done , being with whom.

just have faith in yourself. and change your mind set. change your prior to others.

let it flow, it will go away through time. be happy, that's all i can say.

and don't forget pray to ALLAH. always seek forgiveness.

cause it will never put a burden to us that we can't stand.

and no matter what we had done to life, we can still turn to it cause it always listen to our pray and except our forgiveness.even tough we always do bad things and refuse to seek it when we are in happiness.