Because i want to feel with that kind of feelings everyday.
I want to feel constant.
I want to make myself waking up smiling about stuff and not worrying about what will happen next.
I don't want to move fast either too slow.
I want things to hit me hard, not like this, not like this uncertainty kinda feelings.
Maybe, all i ever want to actually lay back and said
'i'm done. i have everything that i want now in life to be happy, i have you and i make them happy to'
Me and my stupid insecurities.