tadi masa solat subuh, aku duduk atas tikar sejadah, tahan air mata tapi tak mampu, dengar ibu marah-marah dah tak larat nak pertahankan diri, aku sembunyikan kemarahan aku dalam telekung atas sejadah subuh tadi, aku usap-usap dada aku, 'sabar fatin, tu ibu, besar mana pown salah dia, syurga bawah kaki dia, kau jerit ahh pown kau dah dapat dosa, cukuplah dengan dosa yang ada, jangan kau tambah lagi'.
i don't speak much lately. i feel nothing actually. i miss smiling for a reason, i miss laughing with the people i love, today i don't sleep after heaving my sahur, i went out in front of my house and take a deep breath, before that i feel a pressure just hit me straight on top of my head, i don't feel okay, but i'm forcing myself to be okay, i don't know, i just feel good, i hold my anger tight to myself and keep reminding myself that how hard life is, there's a reason everything's happen. Allah knows how's your life going to be like every seconds. if he give you bad things, that means he want you to learn from it. if Allah give something good, that means he want you to be grateful for it. but remember , everything that Allah give to you in the past or in the future, everything is for your own good.
#sekian motivasi pagi -.-"