playing games with my brain

i'm playing games with my brain,

playing with my own emotion,

i might stuck giving hope to others.

it's not that i take the emotion of 'imy' in a serious way went i actually said it to a guy,

i don't know,

it's just , it's kind a words that i guess it's a 'friendly greet' 

a guy: hey babe, imy so much, how are you, bla bla bla

me: imyt? 

it's kind a friendly - missing - talk

not a serious - i want to be in a relationship with you - talk 

i just don't want to stuck in this innocent feelings,

like seriously, everyone need to move on when the time comes right? 

it's kinda lonely month for me,

i suck myself into a black hole,

this black hole is inside me,

eating me alive,

i kept denying to myself,

i said that i'm okay, i will be okay, i must be okay,

but these mindset of mine it's not going to make myself full recovery of being a sad person,

i mean, i felt myself like pathetic watching other people happiness and i look at myself,

what's wrong with me? 

i sit and stare myself in the mirror.

so i kinda plan to cancel my date with that guy tomorrow,

and hang out with my lovely Saidah Salim :')

insyaALLAH, kita jumpa pagi ni ye sayang . rindu ♥

p/s: line berukband mcm haram. lagilah guna luar sempadan. mcm siput vavi laju dia. 

owh, and Singapore just rawrrrkkk :)