lately, i have this bad dream about my life,
how am i afraid if those dream come true,
i hide my feelings behind those smile,
who knows how i felt being at home,
being miserable with what life had gave to me,
when everyone take a shot of themselves,
they don't want to produce picture that had sad face on it,
it's been a rough month for me,
not even a small memories that i want to attached to my head,
when it comes to the best part, eventually the worst will come to :,(
even my birthday sucks. THE TRUTH =.="
so here December,
counting the day to 20th, and i'm back being a student,
gees, what will happen?
this holiday kinda not as i plan it will come,
i miss the old me ,
the old times,
where did they go?
the fun time,
the time that when we all in this crowd,
we were drown by time,
we were drown by laughter.
i really need that moment back,
i do't felt where i'm standing.
and today, I've been inspired by this word :
If you could read my mind, you'd be in tears.
by nad, a friend of mine :)
if only you knew how i miss you so much :(
i'm just lost right now.