how can i explain

those pain,

those fake,

those depression,

those unstable emotion,

every action that i take for my life,

it's always going to influence me,

i regret, and i'm happy

BOTH AT THE SAME TIME,

decision had been made,

whatever it takes,

i need to move on,

i need to face through this,
those negative thinking and feelings,

it's not going to help at all.

YA ALLAH, GIVE ME STRENGTH TO CHANGE MYSELF,

TO CHANGE HIM.

and make world a better place to be :')

i'm trying hard. you know that