Sunday, November 28, 2010

a girl that don't loss hope easily



i know the situation now,
i don't want to be the dumb girl,
who crawl to guys that is not into me,
it's hard,
i'm not a girl who can make other relationship when i'm in one,
i'm not a bitch,
i make mistake,
a big mistake before,
i'm may be not the "paris hilton" that every guy dream of,
i'm maybe not the girl who's you keep searching for,
don't change me if you wanted me to be someone that you want,
don't treat me like i'm a scum bag,

NO,
I MAYBE SAYING TO YOU I'M NOT STUPID I'M NOT DUMB,
but actually i am stupid,
stupid for loving you to much,
you give a lot of reasons when things that you hide eventually i know,
like i said, I'M NOT STUPID.
but deep inside me, i answer myself with that statement,
if your going out with other girl,
who am i to you? 

an anonymous once being sarcastic to me,
are you proud having 5 ex bf?
here's the answer,
NO, and it hurts,
to make you felt a bit proud questioning me that answer,
all of the relationship not a happy ending for me, 
but for them,
I've been dump!
satisfied?

i'm not trying to ask for sympathy  here,
i'm trying to share,
and with hope,
someone could help me through this.

i face through this a lot of time,
not once, 
but often,
i'm getting tired of being played,
one thing people should know,
I'M NOT A HATER,
i don't hate people easily,
even the person who hurts me,
that's me, nurfatin nadiah.
A GIRL THAT DON'T HATE PEOPLE EASILY.

a friend once told me,

fatin, ALLAH uji kita sebab dia tau, kita mampu nak hadapi semua ni,
dia sayang kita, jahat mana pown kita,
ada sebecis kasih sayang dia kat kita,
kita kene buka pintu kesedaran dalam diri kita,
untuk kita sedar,
dan berubah,
dan menjadi manysia yang lebih baik.

fatin kuat,
fatin dah harungi banyak dugaan dalam hidup,
dugaan kawan-kawan, keluarga, kekasih,
tapi fatin kene sedar,
jangan masa kita susah baru kita nak cari dia.


like i said, i make a lot of mistake,
the biggest one that people also can't believe if i told them,
unbelievable right? :,)

people have their own secret,
that maybe it's their black spot in their life,
so here me.

the unperfect me,
that always try to fix myself,
make mistake,
fall for random guy,
say love easily, very easily,
and i just can't change it,
this is just me,
people start to take advantage?
who knows?

dear you,
for now,
i'll fight for my happiness,
for you,
for us,
who know's one day you'll find much better one,
and by that time,
i'm so ready,
to let things go,
because just so you know,
o'm letting you go now,
every one of you,
so that i can learn how to be a new girl.

a girl that always stand up,
every time she falls,
every time she cry,
she will wipe her own tears,
and deep inside her, 
she always believe for second chance,
maybe third,
and more than you people can ever imagine,
and i will be the girl who never loss hope easily :,)

insyaALLAH :)

IRIS BY GOO GOO DOLLS 
for you

Verse 1

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
Verse 2

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
Chorus

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Verse 3

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

Chorus

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Chorus

I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am




2 comments:

teeha said...

babe , let's stand together

fatinlullaby said...

we must and we can :)