blood and vein

you can see me smile, 

but can you see the pain :,)

we fight for stupid things,

ignore our self but the fact is we both want attention,

i felt like i force myself to make myself happen,

even the truth is i'm not,

i just happy when i watch you happy,

i felt you are far away from me even we are next to each other,

i felt that every single love words that came out from our mouth is just a word,

i felt doubt in everything that we do,

i make everything felt perfect and the truth is nothing perfect in this world,

all i ever wanted in life is a smile,

and as you can see that I've sacrifice enough myself to be happy

is it worth it?

is it worth fighting for?

for us?

i have no tears on me anymore,

few years past,

my life was not perfect.

i have a lot of love around me,

but me myself can't see it,

i'm blind with my shadow,

i'm blind with my past,

i'm stuck between dreams and reality.

yes , the right word.

I'M STUCK BETWEEN REAL LIFE AND REALITY

all i ever wanted to do is someone to lighten it up,

make it a clear road for me.

can you understand what i want.

final starts tomorrow,

i need to go back to my book.

till then heartache.

xoxo

your my blood and vein,

no matter what,

i will try to love you.

always