my lullaby stories: pain and smile

time past by so fast and just felt that my past just gone in a second.

i try to turn, and i guess now only shadow i see,

a huge shadow that i just don't want to go back,

i can still feel the pain deep inside me,

but now, it's just a scar that i wish the scar will never open again,

everything felt innocence,

everything felt brilliant,

and i just want to stay like this for a moment,

i don't felt happy or sad,

but i felt there still a light of hope to be happy inside me,

those feelings just tingle around and make my day fine,

i don't want to cry or be mad,

i just want to crave a small smile for me to have a great life after you,

my friends, family, strangers, past makes everything felt unpredictable,

one moment i at the top,

and sometimes i just fall down and i just don't want anyone to catch me,

life is getting better, i admit

but the hardness of it is getting tougher to,

the more i hold my self, the more wave hit me hard,

but still when the wave cool down, I'm wet, i felt terrified,

but i know, I'm so ready for another wave,

who cares what people think, what people say and what people see,

i have my own way of life to rule and done,

everything i just want to be other people and say 'i'm not perfect enough',

but eventually i know, nobody's perfect,

people take advantage on me but i guess i don't mind,

i use to be like that before but this time i'm not myself anymore,

i want to change, i want to be better, i want to be different

so that people won't hate me, people won't look down at me, and people DON'T LEAVE ME,

i guess this is what life felt,

and every person in this world will fell this moment like i do.

p/s: let it be this way forever :,)

BALIK KAMPUNG.

pontian oh pontian

a lot of conflict i guess but i just ignoring the story for being back to pontian,

i miss atok and mak long so much :)

nothing much happen here because last week all my cousin had gath to celebrate mother's day and my family weren't there. :(

it's fine i guess, mom have her own reason for this.

go ayah go! haha, at the end, not a single fish was caught. :D

WEEKENDS AGAIN :)

wow, so fast peeps.

i have a great weekend with mr syed muhd firdaus,

we eat at tina's place, play bowling, stuck at a traffic jam.

like syed said, IT'S ADVENTURE!

that day, the whether just raining like cats and dogs,

PICTURE WERE TAKEN AT HIS DSLR.

later will be updated,

oh yes, and the best part is:

I GET THIS HUGE TEDDY TO REPLACE barney

not replacing but changing hugging others fluffy things :)

IT'S BIG, IT'S HUGE

you make me cry for being too happy syed muhamad firdaus :,)

mama said, thanks for the domino and make her daughter day perfect :)

words can't describe how i want to thank you for everything and what you had done to make my day. promise our relationship will last forever. and we will be just like big brother and little sister. hahaha.

BEST FRIEND FOREVER BUNCIT :D

p/s: thank you. menangis ni terharu cgt :,)

IS HARI RAYA GETTING NEAR?

why mum buying cloth to make baju raya so early. haha. i guess women just love hari raya because women love to clean their house, make cookies, sew baju raya, cook for hari raya p/s: YUM2!.

this year theme colour will be GREY! i think it's going to be dull but at the same time stylo. haha

location : gulati's and euro moda.